Napoleon

[maypirate]

I said never again.

I said no one will ever treat me like that again and I was wrong.

I thought I was strong enough but I wasn't.

I though I could word things right but I can't.

And I was crying at the front counter of my job because once again I was staring into a computer screen and realizing I wasn't enough, that I was tired, that I can't because I don't, because the words won't. That love doesn't because I'm not allowed. And I wish. Because I tried, and I wanted.

But when I am upset, I will not walk away.

If you want me to see things differently, don't walk away from me, or play the moral high ground like I'm a child who needs to be told when to stop pressing a sensitive issue.

I push it till it hurts because sometimes it's only when there's pain that the full realization of the injury comes out.

Don't ever walk away from me.

Because I won't forget the way your back looked.