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[maypirate]

ALL RIGHT!

All right, grad school, it is ON now.


I get that I've been a continual social disaster, I'm good, fine, I'll stick with my housemates and Kim and that's good. I'm down with that. I was even all right with my total failure to actively talk to the girl in my soc class. I have my computer, you know, the one that's making HORRIBLE CRUNCHING NOISES LIKE THE FAN IS DYING.

I like that the people at the FinAid office aren't capable of answering their phone. That's cool. Screwing my sleep cycle to hell and back? Good call.

Oh, and fucking with the formatting on my first response paper? That was a nice touch. Really nice.

But fucking LOSING MY GODDAMN STAR OF DAVID THAT I WEAR EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE IS TOO FAR, GRAD SCHOOL! TOO FUCKING FAR!

Jesus Christ I've been one giant troll of motherfucking emo lately and I feel like I need to go run over some children in a really big car or punch someone in the face or both.

This journal will probably be FRIENDS ONLY by the end of the week, so speak now or forever hold your peace.

Fuck.

Comments

[mikkeneko.livejournal.com]

It may still turn up. Don't despair! And don't leave me out of the fo filter please. ;_;

[irishgirl982.livejournal.com]

I shall be your friend forever, Amber *heart*

And I hope things start looking up for you.

[hagane-no.livejournal.com]

I hope life starts treating you better, or you should think about pressing charges for an abusive relationship.

Let me know if you decide to friend me.

[monkeybobert.livejournal.com]

I hope you find it! Retrace steps! Let people know you're looking for it...I don't know, but I'm hoping the fates will grace you by returning it to you and bringing some joy.

And I'm feeling the fucked sleep schedules and stomach problems. Just when I thought it was over with major decisions made...I had to make a bunch of minor decisions and have monetary setbacks. So I'm not in the clear yet. i wish you were here to watch VM with me!

My computer is making crunching noises, too. I really can't afford to have it break. Really can't.

[tavella.livejournal.com]

Hugs madly! I hope things go better.

And put me in the friends filter, please?

[feast.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I hope you can find your necklace. I'll be on MSN later tonight if you want to vent or talk or whatever. ♥

And I hope you consider putting me on the FO filter.

[cryogenia.livejournal.com]

*clings to May*

It always sucks for a while in a new place. Especially when it's a school, cause schools suck like that. Hang in there!

[bluejaysfan4eva.livejournal.com]

OMG! That sounds horrible! Someone needs to send your grad school a punch in the... well... you know.

Friend?

[entropyx56.livejournal.com]

friends?

[homoshiroi.livejournal.com]

I wish you were at oberlin! With me! We'll always go to the same school by me, Burr.

[riot-o-curls.livejournal.com]

i speak! i speak! and i love yoooou!

[taskemus.livejournal.com]

Hopefully things will get better soon! ♥

Also, friends only = yes.

[zalia.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

That really sucks. I hope things get better soon May!!

Can I be on the friends only thing?

[evilalphonse.livejournal.com]

(excuse me for posting on the rp journal. XD;;)

Man... That's weird about the FinAid people. Usually offices like that actually, you know, pretend to try. o.o I'd say don't give up, but I know you won't, it's just that... agh, that has to be extremely aggravating.

::hugs:: I hope things turn out better for you soon. They usually do. But I don't blame you one bit for being so frustrated right now with everything that's going on.

And it always makes me feel dumb to ask, because I hate feeling like I'm begging people to be my friend or whatever, but I hope you consider keeping me on the fo filter...

[perivates.livejournal.com]

Gah, I hope you find your Star of David...

*hugs*

If you make your LJ Friends Only, I wanna stay on. ♥

[timbean.livejournal.com]

dude, i would absolutely CRY if i lost my coin that i never take off. seriously. *hugs supah tight*

you are not a social failure. you haven't been there long enough to justify saying that. *snugs some more* i understand so well bebe; i was actually trembling a bit when i spoke up in my soc class today. this whole leaving your friends thing and being social in a totally new place can be so terrifying.

*hugs hugs hugs hugs and hugs some more*

[harukaceles.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you lost your necklace. I know what that's like, believe me ><

I'm always up for taking that trip to you! I'll do it!

[sky-dark.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your necklace sweetheart, hopefully it will turn up. Just keep looking around for it, maybe someone found it in one of your classes. *hug* Take deep breaths, I know it's frustrating but don't worry yourself into making yourself sick. *smooch*

[doommuffin-chan.livejournal.com]

I send you wishes for a found necklace and e-hugs through the internets from Japan.

Listening to your rants is what your FL is for ^_~

[anax.livejournal.com]

I'm speaking up! I hope you find your necklace, because it makes me sad when beloved things are lost, even when they aren't mine. :(

[jen-boo.livejournal.com]

I know you don’t know me, know of me, and probably don’t recall the one time that I’ve spoken to you, but I figured it was finally time to “come out of the woodwork” and actually say something.

The first time I discovered you was through your fan fiction. Honestly, I attribute the dissipation of my distaste for Elricest (which squicked me to no end for the better part of a year) almost entirely to those of your works which I have read. It’s patently obvious that you have such a love and understanding for those two brothers which clearly translates through the images and feelings you project through your pieces. Thank you so much for sharing them with others and not keeping them private. I greatly admire your talent, and have wanted to say that for some time. The unfortunate truth is that I’m just rather shy and cowardly about leaving comments, and find it pointless to simply repeat things others have already said before I had the opportunity to read. (I am a rather slow reader – which is awful because I love to read – and thus never get around to finishing something during the first 24 hours after the post, unless it is extremely short.)

I genuinely want to know more about the authors of works that I enjoy if I can, so I wandered over to your more daily life journal. When I found out you lived in Wisconsin (Madison no less) I smiled and was determined to try and learn a little more. You see, I might have been born and raised in New Jersey, but my parents are from Wisconsin (Wausau and Middleton) and so basically the entire family still lives there (in Wisconsin Rapids, Wausau, Milwaukee, Middleton, and various other places) and we go there every Christmas. My whole life has been Christmastime in Wisconsin (with the exception of 2 years – although we did go out a couple of days after Christmas Day, so it was still December in Wisconsin, if nothing else). My parents and myself are all graduates of the University in Madison (I vividly remember the 25 inches of snow the city saw over the course of two days in December of 2000 – I think Milwaukee hit a record that December, as well, if I remember correctly), so I’ve lived there for a three good years (the fourth was a study abroad year). Thus, Wisconsin is my second home. (And you have no idea how much I am craving Culvers, cheese curds -- from the Nitty Gritty or otherwise --, Babcock ice cream, and Pizza Pit right at this moment since I’m talking about Wisconsin. :P)

It seems to me that there is a fine line between lurker and stalker, and I am not sure where I stand in your opinion now that you have read this message. If I’ve somehow crossed the Rubicon with this message and you classify me as a stalker, then I’m sorry, because I sincerely meant no ill will towards you and will hence forth leave you alone. I just finally wanted to try and break out of my cowardly state and introduce myself. (I just feel awkward leaving messages on people’s personal journals whom I do not have friended, unless those entries are fan works or original writing or something otherwise whored out to public communities.)

Oh, if I haven’t scared you, and you wish another person to discuss grad school life with from someone who has also experienced it (I was at Indiana University in Bloomington and just finished my MA last December – I wrote two small articles instead of writing a thesis, so I can’t really sympathize with that aspect, but I can empathize) I willingly offer my services.


I'm sorry again for anything I may have inadvertently done, and thank you for taking the time to read this.

Chin up.



P.S. I offer this for your meme if it so inspires you to use it: 5 Uses the Twins Have Found for a Roll of Toilet Paper.

P.P.S. If you haven’t already discovered (but I would bet you have), the pineapple is a symbol of hospitality. People would have pictures of one or other objects depicting its shape to signify that the owners of the establishment welcome visitors. (And, oddly, this is something I learned during one of my many trips to Williamsburg. BTW, we like to eat breakfast at Mama Steve’s; it’s about the only place we have breakfast when we visit.)