The leaden circles dissolved in the air

[maypirate]

I made a mopey self-indulgent fandom post last night and I thought I'd want to delete it this morning but then things just kept getting worse.

I had a terrible sinus headache last night and couldn't sleep.

I'm about to spend almost all the money I have to my name on bills, and my health insurance is already late and therefore cancelled, so I need to call them. I also have four medical appointments to make and no time for any of them.

Tonight my dad is going to yell at me about my finances and I'll have no excuses for being a failure. And then he'll tear apart my master's thesis and I don't even want to think about that anymore.

And my bus never came and I was late to work and there were two people waiting.

Now I get to go shovel.

I hate today.

I'm sorry for complaining. I know lots of people are having a bad time.

Comments

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

:HUGS HUGS:

If there's anything I can do, let me know. ♥

[maypirate.livejournal.com]

You can keep on rocking in the free world and being yourself.

Although you could give me new button ideas, if any occur to you. :)

[thalialunacy.livejournal.com]

Ah, you ask me the one thing I'm bad at. XB But if I think of any, I shall most certainly let you know. <3

[jazzy-peaches.livejournal.com]

Just because other people are having a bad time does not mean your complaints are not legit.

You're totally not a failure; money is hard. I totally understand and commiserate. And ok I don't know much about it, but I would put money on your thesis not warranting being yelled at.

*hugs* I hope you feel better soon and if there is anything I can do, don't hesitate to ask. Would you like an elementary school valentine? I will send you a valentine. No no you cannot stop me. (Unless you really don't want one. ;) )

[maypirate.livejournal.com]

Thank you. ;_; I just don't want to be a burden and I'm always scared of annoying people or seeming whiny.

Money is hard and actually there wasn't yelling, it was an abstract sort of "we need to figure out a plan for you." And my concerns about my thesis were a bit...overreactive. My dad is a professor and he's sort of my idol - he used to proofread my papers in high school and would tear them apart and it was for their own good, but my thesis has been such a long time coming and I don't want to think about it anymore, so I didn't want him to read it as an academic. It's sort of...I know it's not my best work, but I didn't really want him to say it. :F

Your squished snowman picture made me smile. That's enough. :)

[harukaceles.livejournal.com]

Today is kind of a crappy feeling day and your problems are still completely valid because they affect your life. Just as other people's problems affect theirs, etc.

Good luck with your dad tonight. It doesn't matter that you know parents love you, care about you...there are just some conversations you dread having with them.

If you have bus issues in the future, you can always let me know, as I am up at ridiculous times for work and can generally help.

That and we should do things soon. I haven't done things with many people in quite some time.

[igntethestars.livejournal.com]

Honey, honey :( Im so sorry today has been so terrible for you. Do not EVER think your problems aren't valid; half of what I grumble about in my journal are friendship/relationship problems and money. I wish there was a way for me to say this is going to get better soon, but there's no way I can know. All I can do is offer support and virtual hugs, and lend an ear in case ou ever need anyone to talk to :(

As for the fandom post: Id give yourself a while to cheer up before you count everything out. Sometimes, when things seem the blackest, EVERYTHING is black. Even things you love dearly. <3

[soda-and-capes.livejournal.com]

*HUGS HUGS HUGS* Just breathe. And remember to cut yourself some slack. Because you are great.

[jou.livejournal.com]

Hey, it was just the other day that you were telling me that other people's pain does not make my own lesser or irrelevant. *kisses you*

Please hang in there, and know that I am here for you, no matter what.

[monkeybobert.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that your day was sucky. I hope that your dad does not actually rip your thesis apart.

You can complain. That's what LJ and friends are for sometimes. I miss you!