The way that we are changing now
Mar. 26th, 2004 11:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maypirateKevin said yesterday that I would be a bad person to cross. I think it`s true - I`m very vengeful.
I told him I hate people who get described by others as "the sweetest person in the world" but I`m not sure why I said that. Jealousy? Maybe I think if they were the sweetest person in the world they wouldn`t hurt other people, even if they don`t mean it. Maybe I want them to know they can`t get by without feeling raw emotions like anger and disappointment. If you don`t get passionate you aren`t real. Maybe I jump to conclusions.
But if they hurt someone, they should get hurt too. Eye for an eye.
"Soon you will know my hate, and suffer as I have suffered."
But I would keep you from suffering, from all of it, if I could.
- What is the geekiest part of your music collection?
The soundtrack to Animaniacs. Damn that show was clever.
- What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?
I don`t do that. Unless it`s for milk to go with the crackers I am undoubtedly eating to quell the acid rage in my stomach.
- What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
A League of Their Own, and it`s no secret. Also Pocahontas.
- If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
I`d rather just have a haircut. I really need one.
- Do you have a completely irrational fear?
Spiders. Food poisoning. Not getting tenure.
- What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
I pick at my nails and scrape at the skin at my hairline, but it`s more because I`m bored and need something to do with my hands. I also tear paper into spirals.
- Do you know anyone famous?
Gorbachev and I have the same birthday! I think that counts.
- Describe your bed.
Which one? I have a moldy futon with fluffy blankets in Japan, and a real bed in the US. The bed in the US has palm trees on the sheets.
- Spontaneous or plan?
Planned spontanaeity. Japan doesn`t like being spontaneous, I`ve realized, though. It only makes me want to do it more.
- Do you know how to play poker?
Yeah, but I don`t see where the skill comes in.
- What do you carry with you at all times?
Me.
Uh...in Japan I try to always have my train passes... and at Oberlin I usually want my ID....
- What do you miss most about being little?
Not much, actually. Oh! Wait! My guinea pigs. :)
- Are you happy with your given name?
Yeah. But not when other people have it. They don`t wear it well. IT`S MINE!
- How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?
No one knows the words for numbers that large.
- What color is your bedroom?
A MYRIAD OF PSYCHOTROPIC FLAVORS!
- What was the last song you were listening to?
"Planets of the Universe" by Stevie Nicks on one of the cds Pairaka sent me. :)
- Have you ever been in a play?
From "The Nightingale" in third grade to my various forays into Shakespeare, yes. Oh I`m so cultured!
- Who is your best friend?
I have many close and special people.
- Have you ever been in love?
Hellz yeah! Now and then and with fake things and real people and WOOOO!
- Do you talk a lot?
You cannot shut me up.
- Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
I want me. Do you?
- Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
They annoy me in the sense that I realize I can`t do much to help and then I feel guilty.
- Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
Usually, but see above.
- Do you spend more time with your boyfriend or your friends?
My boyfriend is one of my friends, although right now I would like to spend more time with him than I am able to.
- What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
Be in America right now.
- What is your ideal marriage location?
Well the moon is pretty slick.. But I dunno, maybe Middle Earth?
- Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
The Piano, like Tori. Or the guitar. Or something.
- Something you love and hate?
Japan. My stomach.
- What kind of bedding do you use?
COmforters. Lots of them.
- What's the one language you want to learn?
English. Wait, I already know it. WAHAHAHA! I AM THE KING!
- What do you order at a bar?
Soda. Sometimes Kaluha and milk.
- Have you ever pierced your body parts?
My ears, but they are closed or pus-ish now.
- Do you have tattoos?
I would if I could but I can`t so I won`t. Also Liza on AKP stole my tattoo idea, so...
- Do you drive stick?
No, but if you can`t find it, grind it!
- What's one trait you hate in a person?
Stupid people, people who don`t think they need certain things -friends, help, a life- when they really do, people who everybody loves who aren`t me or someone that I love...
- What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
I don`t wear them since that betrayal by my two Asuka watches.
- Most frivolous purchase?
Most things.
- Do you consider yourself materialistic?
I enjoy stuff. Is that what you`re looking for?
- Favorite writing instrument?
Keyboard. A CASIO! AHAHAHAHAHA! I mean, um, one attached to a computer.
- Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
Stand out like I`m on fire.
- Would you ever go out dressed as the opposite sex?
I have, but not very successfully.
- What's one car you will never buy?
A muthafuckin` SUV. Hate those sonsabitches.
- What kind of books do you like to read?
Ones that rock. But I, unlike others, can get through something written by Dan Brown, even if the prose is like smashed snails. ;)p
- If you won the lottery, what would you do?
Dump the money on the floor and roll around in it.
- Burial or cremation?
That thing they can do in Sweden where they freeze dry you, then break you with soundwaves, then use you to grow plants.
But my parents already have my grave plot picked out. Creepy, huh?
- How many online journals do you read regularly?
Those of my AWESOME FRIENDS, every day.
- What's one thing you're a sore loser at?
Most games at which one can lose.
- If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
Be very very cold/rude/sarcastic. Act better than they are.
- Do you cry in front of friends?
Yup. And strangers, too.
- What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
Loud.
- What's one thing you like to do alone?
Probably writing, like Don.
- Are you a giver or a taker?
I try to be a giver, in that I really like giving and I do it often, but... I do demand a lot...
- What have you stolen before?
Only things I intend to return later, like tape from my dad`s desk, or glasses from my host family.
- Favorite communication method?
Talkin` and playin`! Although ICQ works nicely as well.
- How many drinks before you're tipsy?
I`ve never figured it out.
- Do you ever have to beg...
Nar.
- Have you ever done any illegal drugs?
Only the legal one that are prescribed me, thanx.
- Do you think you're cute?
Fucking adorable.
- Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?
What does that mean, exactly?
- What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
Everybody hurts sometimes, y`know?
And there you have it. Perhaps more later, after Hot or Not and before I finally get to see Aki.
I told him I hate people who get described by others as "the sweetest person in the world" but I`m not sure why I said that. Jealousy? Maybe I think if they were the sweetest person in the world they wouldn`t hurt other people, even if they don`t mean it. Maybe I want them to know they can`t get by without feeling raw emotions like anger and disappointment. If you don`t get passionate you aren`t real. Maybe I jump to conclusions.
But if they hurt someone, they should get hurt too. Eye for an eye.
"Soon you will know my hate, and suffer as I have suffered."
But I would keep you from suffering, from all of it, if I could.
- What is the geekiest part of your music collection?
The soundtrack to Animaniacs. Damn that show was clever.
- What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?
I don`t do that. Unless it`s for milk to go with the crackers I am undoubtedly eating to quell the acid rage in my stomach.
- What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
A League of Their Own, and it`s no secret. Also Pocahontas.
- If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
I`d rather just have a haircut. I really need one.
- Do you have a completely irrational fear?
Spiders. Food poisoning. Not getting tenure.
- What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
I pick at my nails and scrape at the skin at my hairline, but it`s more because I`m bored and need something to do with my hands. I also tear paper into spirals.
- Do you know anyone famous?
Gorbachev and I have the same birthday! I think that counts.
- Describe your bed.
Which one? I have a moldy futon with fluffy blankets in Japan, and a real bed in the US. The bed in the US has palm trees on the sheets.
- Spontaneous or plan?
Planned spontanaeity. Japan doesn`t like being spontaneous, I`ve realized, though. It only makes me want to do it more.
- Do you know how to play poker?
Yeah, but I don`t see where the skill comes in.
- What do you carry with you at all times?
Me.
Uh...in Japan I try to always have my train passes... and at Oberlin I usually want my ID....
- What do you miss most about being little?
Not much, actually. Oh! Wait! My guinea pigs. :)
- Are you happy with your given name?
Yeah. But not when other people have it. They don`t wear it well. IT`S MINE!
- How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?
No one knows the words for numbers that large.
- What color is your bedroom?
A MYRIAD OF PSYCHOTROPIC FLAVORS!
- What was the last song you were listening to?
"Planets of the Universe" by Stevie Nicks on one of the cds Pairaka sent me. :)
- Have you ever been in a play?
From "The Nightingale" in third grade to my various forays into Shakespeare, yes. Oh I`m so cultured!
- Who is your best friend?
I have many close and special people.
- Have you ever been in love?
Hellz yeah! Now and then and with fake things and real people and WOOOO!
- Do you talk a lot?
You cannot shut me up.
- Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
I want me. Do you?
- Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
They annoy me in the sense that I realize I can`t do much to help and then I feel guilty.
- Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
Usually, but see above.
- Do you spend more time with your boyfriend or your friends?
My boyfriend is one of my friends, although right now I would like to spend more time with him than I am able to.
- What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
Be in America right now.
- What is your ideal marriage location?
Well the moon is pretty slick.. But I dunno, maybe Middle Earth?
- Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
The Piano, like Tori. Or the guitar. Or something.
- Something you love and hate?
Japan. My stomach.
- What kind of bedding do you use?
COmforters. Lots of them.
- What's the one language you want to learn?
English. Wait, I already know it. WAHAHAHA! I AM THE KING!
- What do you order at a bar?
Soda. Sometimes Kaluha and milk.
- Have you ever pierced your body parts?
My ears, but they are closed or pus-ish now.
- Do you have tattoos?
I would if I could but I can`t so I won`t. Also Liza on AKP stole my tattoo idea, so...
- Do you drive stick?
No, but if you can`t find it, grind it!
- What's one trait you hate in a person?
Stupid people, people who don`t think they need certain things -friends, help, a life- when they really do, people who everybody loves who aren`t me or someone that I love...
- What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
I don`t wear them since that betrayal by my two Asuka watches.
- Most frivolous purchase?
Most things.
- Do you consider yourself materialistic?
I enjoy stuff. Is that what you`re looking for?
- Favorite writing instrument?
Keyboard. A CASIO! AHAHAHAHAHA! I mean, um, one attached to a computer.
- Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
Stand out like I`m on fire.
- Would you ever go out dressed as the opposite sex?
I have, but not very successfully.
- What's one car you will never buy?
A muthafuckin` SUV. Hate those sonsabitches.
- What kind of books do you like to read?
Ones that rock. But I, unlike others, can get through something written by Dan Brown, even if the prose is like smashed snails. ;)p
- If you won the lottery, what would you do?
Dump the money on the floor and roll around in it.
- Burial or cremation?
That thing they can do in Sweden where they freeze dry you, then break you with soundwaves, then use you to grow plants.
But my parents already have my grave plot picked out. Creepy, huh?
- How many online journals do you read regularly?
Those of my AWESOME FRIENDS, every day.
- What's one thing you're a sore loser at?
Most games at which one can lose.
- If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
Be very very cold/rude/sarcastic. Act better than they are.
- Do you cry in front of friends?
Yup. And strangers, too.
- What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
Loud.
- What's one thing you like to do alone?
Probably writing, like Don.
- Are you a giver or a taker?
I try to be a giver, in that I really like giving and I do it often, but... I do demand a lot...
- What have you stolen before?
Only things I intend to return later, like tape from my dad`s desk, or glasses from my host family.
- Favorite communication method?
Talkin` and playin`! Although ICQ works nicely as well.
- How many drinks before you're tipsy?
I`ve never figured it out.
- Do you ever have to beg...
Nar.
- Have you ever done any illegal drugs?
Only the legal one that are prescribed me, thanx.
- Do you think you're cute?
Fucking adorable.
- Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?
What does that mean, exactly?
- What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
Everybody hurts sometimes, y`know?
And there you have it. Perhaps more later, after Hot or Not and before I finally get to see Aki.
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Date: 2004-03-25 08:20 pm (UTC)I got through it! ;p It's just my favourite thing to complain about!
And that thing in Switzerland sounds neat.
And I hope your picked-out grave is in Resurrection Cemetery!