Who never used to cry

[maypirate]

Wow, look, a post.

Today is a lousy day and I don't know why. I've been in a terrible mood and I hope it's from PMS.

I have a paper no less than five pages in length due in all of my classes by the end of the semester, if not before Thanksgiving, and I am not even vaguely interested in writing about any topic for any of them.

My housemates made dinner and left a tomato mess all over the kitchen. They all insist that they are not the ones who use the dishes and leave them dirty, but they can't explain to me who does. They refuse to wash dishes they didn't dirty, but they get upset at the thought of paper plates though no one will take initiative. I'm seriously thinking about moving again. This is too much.

I'm sick of arguing about art with Chenya. I gain no ground and nothing I say ever sticks. I give up, I surrender. I'm done. I can't do it anymore and I won't.

I was in such a foul mood that I opted to change my ExCo interview time instead of doing it today. I should have just said I needed to reschedule, but I said I didn't think I was in the right state of mind to defend it today, and that I lost my last ExCo because I tried to defend it on a day when I couldn't. How stupid. Now they'll think I'm not together enough to have one. Way to screw up, me. I shouldn't have said anything. Now it's ruined.

I focus too much energy into rp-ing characters that I hate in my world with Pairaka. I know it's a horrible thing to say, but I just can't do it anymore. It's too tiring. It's too hard, and it gets in the way of other things I should think about instead of thinking about how much I can't stand them.

I have to go sit in my stupid Vietnam class for two hours and it will be so horribly, horribly boring and I will have nothing to say.

I know Bob was expecting some rant about the election, but I can't do that anymore either.

I really hope this is just today, or just this week. I don't want to face the thought that maybe this might be something that needs medication too.

I woke up this morning and finally my stomach had stopped hurting. So why is today so bad?

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[kleptoneko.livejournal.com]

*hugz & sends 'feel-better' waves towards you*