You ain't a beauty, but hey you're all right

The other day I wrote two really long entries and LJ deleted both of them before I was done so I got kinda frustrated and decided not to bother.

It was about missing you.

She said, jealousy's always been a problem with me, and it's no different now. Now when you're where I want to be, and I can't be there, making friends so much more easily than I ever did, because I shut down.

I shut down back then, and I was paralyzed by missing you.

It took me weeks to get used to other people's rooms, uncomfortable, pushing at their hands when they tried to get close because none of them were you, and I missed you, but they didn't give up and I'm so grateful...but...jealous...

And that can't happen again now.

It's hard to miss places and mistakes.

But I'm glad that you're taking care of yourself while I can't. Kiotsukete kudasai.

Now that I've met you, would you object to never seeing each other again?

Now that I'm free, there's other stuff to say.

Got my computer all gussied up (HI BOB!!! HI ANDY!!! HI!) at Best Buy so fucking pop-ups won't fucking pop up all over the place anymore. Sexy. My mom and I also went out and got socks and underwear and cards and iced Chai that blew a hole in my stomach but it was still good, and...I forget what else...

Don is comin back tonight, and Joel and Beth and I will have a computer installation party! Joel has to help me with nice computer things.
And I have to clean my room and OH MY SWEET GOD I'M GOING TO JAPAN ON MONDAY.

BOB AND DECKED I HOPE MOVING WENT OKAY!!!

The other night, we went to Jake's and I forgot what happened, but oh, right, Bob gave me a secret present, and now I forgot what else happened. Oh we watched him play a boring game with globbering aliens. Yeah. EXCITEMENT!

I finished the Kyoto Arc in Kenshin and it was super, super hot.
Best thing ever: Saito, the baddest badass that ever badassed saying "It's all for the bling bling."
So much fanservice for us lovely ladies. I want to eat the series.

Yay Chenya and Vicky for settling into college all good and stuff! Chenya, take care of Oberlin and my friends! I'll call Rebecca and Wyna and give them your phone number! And Oliver!

OLIV0R, I miss reading Weird with you. Please be a good evil little brother while I'm away.

Corin and I watched "C.H.U.D" and "Pledge Night" last night, the latter being one of the most horrible things ever, but that was kind of the point.

And I had my first Strawberry Daiquiri last night when my parents and I went out to dinner. Prior to that, I spent the day at Beth's prettying up her computer. I relearned the horrors of downloading things over a modem, boy does it suck.

And I'm going to Japan on Monday.

*in a Zappa voice* KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!